try to find me n miss him

this is me...i try to find whos me n my identity its hard but i try hard to .its been i years already him dont  contact me at all i had this situation its killing me now...i dont know what to do what im gonna suppost to do and i have to do...some time i think i dont want to live anymore cause its hurt n lonely im still study n dont have much strength to do what i want to do cause my family not to rich my dad just a fisherman so thats why i need guy to be my side to make me more strong to being through all of this...i really need my mr!!!i need you why you leave me n let me by self to go through all this im not strong without you im nothing....if you had read my blog please understand me n come back to me i know its not easy to you but cant you remember all the things we been through its so beautiful n amazing you open my eyes show me the things that i never see it!!!you make me fly when i fall down you raise me up when i cant stand anymore you make me laugh when my tears ofrom my eyes comes out you hold my hand when no ones be with me when no ones trust me you the ones trust me...you are everything to me.....how cant i face the truth when everything i do is related n remind me to you without i want it!!!i think i want be like this i really dont want it!!!i dont want be like if i can do i want to delete n erase everything about you everything everything!!!iwant my mind n my memory empty without you!!!i dont want remember anything about you!!!what i do now is try be strong strong so so strong n live without you but i miss you much!!!

berubah

ku ingin benar bersama dengan mu dan kau pun menjauh tiba2 kini kau telah berubah apakah salah ku....semuany telah berakhir.....

itulah lirik lagu berubah ost nora elena kt tv3...

ska tgok crite ney best...

tpi yg sya nk ceritankan bukan pasal crite ney tpi crite sya haha...

klau mlas nk dengar x yah bca smpai abis haha....

crita dia cm ney dh 3 tahun sya break up ngan bf sya sbb slah fham je...agk2 bleh trima x alasan 2 ha?

bgi sya mmng sya x trima sbb small matter lah...

tpi laki ney ego dia tinggi sgt(sorry n maap yew klau da lki yg bca blog sya ney)bkn nk ktuk ka kata ka tpi reality mmng mcm 2 ...puas sya pjuk tpi x jalan gak eem...pnat tau tpi apa kn dya dh orng x ska an....

kkdang 2 dlm perhubungan atau relationship kita mesti pelik kn npa psngan kita tiba2 berubah an kkdng 2 tnpa sbb pon dia boleh berubah....

ney antra sbb2 nya mengikut falsafah prof nur adilah dri fakulti something

1.mencari masa depan yg lebih sempurna

2.x yakin dengan diri sendiri

3.bosan

4.tanggungjawab terhadap keluarga

5.dah jumpa yg lebih baik

6.x puas enjoy ngan kawan2

7.rasa terkongkong

8.malas nk terikat ngn someone

9.sibuk ngn karier

10.hilang kepercayaan

itulah antara sbb yg dpat sya rumuskan setelah dicampur dicogak didarab dan dibahagi haha

eem pa2 pon bak kta pepatah rambut itam hati didlm sapa tau an

orng ney dia bleh berubah sekelip mata ja au.....

skrng dia mmng jauh dri ak jauh sgt2 x sempat sya nk kejar blik...pnat la yela ex sya 2 atlet n pemain bola sepak ssh la sya nk kejar an...orng sllu ckap klau jdoh x kemana an sya pegang kta2 2 moga2 jdy kenyataan n dimakbulkan amin.....sya msih ingat pa jnji2 dia kt sya ingt masih segar di ingatan sya knapa dia berubah ha!!!semunya telah berakhir sya ingat sgt2 bersama ngan dia tpi dia dh berubah berubah berubah waaaa.......